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To my lovely little

Just a short and sweet blog about one of the sweetest humans in my life

Dear Alyssa,

When we went on our first big little date, I knew you were the one for me. The day before had been a rough one but somehow at lunch you still managed to make me smile and not think about everything for a little while. During lunch, we bonded over our love of Special Education. Like me, you are so passionate about Special Ed and want to focus your career there. Our conversation continued and we got on the subject of food. It may not have been a deep conversation, but we still connected over our obsession for cheese, tater tots, and ranch. To this day we still eat and talk about our love for those three items way to often.

This year I have loved watching you flourish in Alpha Sigma Tau and everywhere you go. In the sorority you are always so positive and caring to all of our sister. Across campus you put passion into everything you do… even making omelets. Your passion for Special Ed is truly inspiring and I am so excited to see the wonderful teacher you grow into. Can’t wait to tag team with Speech Pathology and Special Ed once we are both finally out of college. You are kind of

crazy, but in a good way. You always make sure I have time for fun whether it is binge watching Atypical in one single night (the best show ever), food runs, or just a chat.

Thank you for coming into my life when I needed you the most. You are such a wonderful human and spread sunshine wherever you go. You have brought me so much happiness and continue to every single day. Thanks for the late night runs to Taco Bell because those are needed! Thanks for loving ranch as much as I do and always asking for more when we are at restaurants. Thanks for being the most perfect little a typical sorority gal could ask for. Most importantly, thanks for being my other half/ the same person as me. You and I are like two peas in a pod and I would not have been able to get through these past few months without you.

Thanks for loving me unconditionally and being the best addition the Banana Fam could have ever asked for.

Lots of Love, Big ♥

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My Everything {literally}

In order to talk about my mentor and reflect on what it has been like having her, I also need to talk about my Big, best friend, and sister. As you can see she is basically everything to me hence the title “My Everything {literally}”.

{Let me tell you about my best friend} Emily, is an intelligent, passionate, driven, compassionate human. On the other side of things, she is silly, quirky (in the best of ways), and warm & fuzzy. She is everything you want in a person plus more because she literally does everything.

Everyone talks about finding their bridesmaids, adventure pals, and best friends… which is all true with Emily and I. BUT with Em, I have found so much more. To me, Em is my forever friend. She is everything wrapped up into one ball of tea, notes, positivity, hugs, snuggles, sass, and love. Out of many people in my life she is someone I connect with on the deepest of all levels, she is someone who knows what I am thinking before I even say it. Emily has made me feel like there is a place for my quirkiness and has helped me grow into the women I am today. I’m sharing the  letter I wrote to her on Sisterhood day and read in front of everyone in the tent.

My Dearest Em,

From day one I knew I needed you in my life. It all began with a simple compliment of me liking your dress during the Leadership Advancement Scholarship Competition Day. From there we started talking and you told me everything I needed to know about the scholarship. That night I told my mom all about you and how I really hoped you would be my mentor. Fast forward a few months, and I finally found out that you were my mentor. I basically called you screaming I was so excited and at the time did not know how important you soon would be to me. Another fast forward and we are at me moving into college and starting my life here. We bonded so much my first few weeks especially on our mentor mentee retreat. During this weekend we skipped all the basic things like every other pair and went straight into deep conversations. This was the moment I remember that I knew I needed and wanted you in my life forever. Soon after was recruitment, and I knew I wouldn’t be able to talk to you for awhile. Going through recruitment was hard without you but it all worked out in the end. I jumped home to Alpha Sigma Tau right into your open arms and not long after you became my big. This is where our perfect story ends and where we begin. Only a little while after big little, your mom was hospitalized. Her health was not looking good and the doctors continued coming with bad news. Although you were constantly worried about me, you never saw how worried about you I was. Everything came second to letting you know and making sure you knew I was there for you. Then that day came, I was sitting in my Communication Disorders Language Development class and I received a missed call from you. Instantly my heart dropped and I ran out of class to call back. You were trying to keep your composure while telling me that it was time for you to say goodbye to your mom. You never knew but I skipped class this day just to spend more time on the phone with you and to be there to help you through anything and everything. The next few days seemed like the longest days of my life, and then it was time for the celebration of your mom’s life. Myself and several other sisters went to be there for you and I remember seeing your face for the first time in two weeks and wanting to run to your side. You gave an amazing speech there and I was so incredibly proud of how strong of a women you were and are. After this, you had changed, not for worse, but because there was something huge missing now from your life. I knew you had to do things on your own, but I always made sure I was ready with ice cream or an IHOP date if necessary. Day by day you opened up more, pouring your heart out to me about life and what it was like without your mom. Because of this I opened up more to you as well and we were vulnerable together. Although my experiences have been very different from yours I was always there to listen and try to understand how you felt. The rest of the school year was tough, but together we both got through and you began to smile more and more as each day passed. Also, these were the months where although we may have not seen one another every day we were inseparable and closer than any other two humans. From many late night vents, movies, and food runs, you know me better than I know myself and I could not have picked a better human being to have in my life. I love you more than words can explain and more than the universe can hold. You are my rock, my best friend, my mentor, my big, and my everything. And Now a year and a half later, I don’t know how I went 17 years without you in my life.

So to everyone reading this I hope you find a Dwight to you Jim, Ann to your Leslie, Teri to Dr. Ross, or the best of all Em to your Ab ❤️ 


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Distance Sucks

As I sit in Mt. Pleasant reflecting on the year thus far, I wanted to blog about what I have really struggled with as a Freshman in college. That biggest struggle is the distance with my loved ones ♥

As I said above my number one biggest struggle is the distance from my family and boyfriend. My family, mom, dad, and brother, live in Gladstone which is in the U.P. and about 5 and a half hours from Central. It really is not bad coming from the U.P and growing up driving many hours to get places but when you get homesick and everyone around you is about 2 hours from their family it becomes a struggle. Then my boyfriend Derek goes to Michigan Tech which from Central is about 7 hours. Due to the distance between my boyfriend, the fact that neither of us have cars, and that we are both very busy people we only see one another on breaks. Overall, it has been a very rough adjustment from seeing all of them basically everyday to rarely ever seeing them. Both my parents occasionally have work downstate or come to Central for games and such so I see at least one person in my family about once a month. So thankfully I do see my parents but I rarely ever see Derek which has been very tough.

Anyways, many people talk about how you get homesick in college. But I could not imagine how hard it would actually be for me and really how close I am with my family. Also, I feel at home in Barnes and at Central, I have made the most wonderful friends on this earth who are always there when I miss my loved ones. SO instead of home sick I feel like I am people sick or loved ones sick if that is an actual thing {don’t get that confused with sick of people though}. I have noticed it much more this semester probably because it the fact that I am in college and independent is really starting to sink in after all of the craziness of the first semester. This semester I have also noticed sometimes how hard it is to have everyone around me talk about seeing their boyfriends and families all the time. Not to be a dower because I love my friends here and I am so happy they can see the people they care about, but once in a while it really gets me down and I have to remind myself that I am here for a reason, I love what I am going into, and I do love it here with my whole heart. BUT, it is hard sometimes all I need is my mom or boyfriend to cheer me up when I am stressed or upset and phone calls or Facetime are nice but I truly appreciate face to face time now.

The hardest part for me has been missing the important moments. In February, within two days of one another, my mom turned 50 and Derek turned 20. That week I was unable to see both of them, yes it was because I was doing something I am truly passionate about but it still hurt all the same. For my mom especially, since I have been old enough I do all of our Claes family traditions that she does for everyone else in the family. We have a birthday cake candle that’s always out on someones birthday, I get all of her presents, I make dinner, etcetera. So this year when I was not there I was number one stressed because I was unable to do all of these things from downstate, number 2 upset I could not be there for such an important birthday, and number three honestly worried my brother and dad would forget and not do anything special for her. As for Derek I just felt bad for being unable to be with him when he went from a teenager to a 20 year old because that is kind of a big deal. However, I did get to Facetime him at 11:20 on Friday night until Saturday at 12:30 so I was the first person to say happy birthday and we could at least see one another on his special day.

Finally, I just wanted to say that I love being at Central and it was one of the best decisions I have made for myself. I have grown as a person and I appreciate many things so much more now. I have found my “new” home here and the best friends I could ever ask for. I have a huge support system whenever I need it and I have many wonderful connections. I do miss my family and boyfriend a bunch but I know that every time I do see them it is the best hour/day/week ever. I made the right decision for me even though that means I am apart from my loved ones it only makes our bond stronger and our love deeper.

I just want everyone who’s in college or getting ready to go to college that it is okay to love your school and what you’re doing but also miss the people you care about. There probably will be times that are worse than others ex. being sick or stressed but you can get through it. There also may be decisions that involve you either doing something or going home for a bit from what I have experienced I would say do something exciting, fun, and create those life long memories and then go home the next time. opportunities only come once in a while so you have to take them while you can, your family/ boyfriend/ friends/ anyone will understand and support whatever you do. Remember that even though there may be a large distance between you and them that “distances means so little when someone means so much”. The love I have for my family and boyfriend grow exponentially each and everyday and through them I know I can do anything even though we are miles apart.

To close here are some {kind of a lot} fabulous pictures with the people I call home ♥

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To my Mom

February 2nd 2016  Happy 50th Birthday

HAPPY BIRTHDAY 50th MOM! Since I am unable to be with you on this very special day I thought I could do this instead {hopefully your card also got there in time as well}. I just wanted to make a blog post about the best and most wonderful person on this planet. So here is a blog post for you Cath, enjoy! 

Ever since I can remember, we have always been best friends {besides also being mother and daughter of course}. But when I say best friends I really mean best friends. You are my shopping buddy, musical going partner, food fanatic, and lover of many other things with me. Furthermore, we literally share everything now that we are the same size. As soon as we were finally the same size of shoes and clothes we started sharing all of our clothes and shoes. I remember, before leaving for Central we had the rough task of figuring out what clothes would stay home and what clothes I would take because we share so many things now. It was a pretty difficult task considering neither of us wanted to part with our clothing. You were the person who helped me fall in love with music and musicals in general. Going to shows with you every year is really one of the biggest highlights because we always have so much fun together. You have also been the person who has joined in my love for fashion and clothes by every year getting my Vogue Fall Fashion edition and always always always getting me the cutest clothes. Honestly, leaving you in general was very hard for me because I am so use to always having you around and there for me. The worst was the first time I got sick sick and was alone in my room wishing I had my mom. There have been many times that I have wished you were there with me but getting sick in my dorm room was easily number 1 on that list. 

You are so much more than just my mom as I said before you are basically everything to me. The hardest part about college is not being able to see you every day even if you do ask me 10000000000 questions per minute. I miss you endlessly every day but especially today because you are turning the big 50! Thank you for everything you do for me, dad and Addam, you are truly the most wonderful mom on this planet, not sure how I got so lucky. I hope dad and Addam did all of the normal Claes family birthday traditions and I hope you had a wonderful day because you deserve it. Also, hope you enjoy this short and sweet birthday blog ♥ Happy birthday momma, I love you so so much